So just a small update on the Kinky Shenanigans that are about to take place in my life!
Earlier this year I attended my first major event where I really got to explore and see a variety of things first hand. I had so much fun and the experience was very educational. I was very proud of myself due to the fact that I went to this event alone. I accompanied a few friends at some times when ever I ran into them, which lead to me meeting others who I later became pretty close with.
Well guys, you guested it. A very similar event ran by the same people will be hosting what is known as C.O.P.E. This is considered a big event like the ones mentioned in my, “The Kinky Curiosity” post. So far there are over 300 people listed to attend this event and tickets are still being sold. Comment or contact me for more information.
Although I had an AMAZING time at the last major event, I did not participate in any fun festivities, outside of a small flogging and paddling session. This time, all of that will change. I typically like to stay in the back and watch. I like to read body language, feel the energy of the scene or environment, and take mental notes. I’ve never really thought of the day where I would participate in an actual scene until recently. I’ve played a little for educational purposes and I’ve gotten hands-on with quite a few things, but never an intimate, close up and planned out scene. I am generally a very closed off individual when it comes to my sexual side. The closest people in my life are clueless to my desires aside from my most basic wants. There aren’t too many people that can even say they have touched me in any kind of intimate way. Entering into the lifestyle, I was certain that would change, but throughout my time engaged so far, I still have not stumbled upon someone who has provided me with that satisfying energy exchange. I understand that involves my willingness to let a few guards down and being open to exploring more on a physical level. Hopefully those are some things I can get past this time around.
It is a 3 day event and there will be so much to see and do. The energy will be very intense and I am prepared for it. Last event left me drained and deep into my head space. All things that can be taken care of with proper aftercare. Whether it be self care or care provided by the top. I did both and have found that after care is something I use to run from but can’t deny that it helps me tremendously.
I look forward to attending it with some amazing friends of mine that I met at the last event. I have familiarized myself with them, their work, and how they operate. I trust them and am more than comfortable with them as well, to try and push past some of these walls. I expect nothing but good things and to just simply have fun, learn, and explore. I have agreed to take on a role that puts me at peace and makes me feel secure. A role that I fit into like a glove and am pretty confident in. So I am hoping for the best.
I will be updating you guys on new things I have tried and maybe even a quick story time. Stay tuned and feel free to comment and ask all the questions you would like 🙂